Friday, January 27
was sick on wed. blah. woke up feeling pains all over. sian. didnt go sch. thurs go back was like lifeless. regain everything anyway in lyk 5 mins.
bloody shit. today tried to escape from sch from the concert. ahhhhhh. wasted. if i did my tutorial the night before could haf gotten away immediately lor. in e end stay back copy. den security guard go e gate. left main gate. we made a dash for it anyway. vice principal caught us. blah blah. den went back. tok loads. went out play playground with kindergarten. which makes me wonder.. y we become more anti social as we grow older... those kindergarten kiddos were lyk U WAN PLAY? OK U BE CATCHER. COME CATCH US!!!! den i went to play with em ler. its smth we will nvr do u noe.. we wun wanna play with another bunch, nor will another bunch invite us happily.. is this maturity? ha.. sounds weird..
- DEAD
Monday, January 23
gosh. now in sch library. now is bio period. doing some tooty bio research on proteins. sighh. so tiring. just had stupid PE. hate it lor. run run run..
anyway, got like the effects of an hangover now maan. wake up too early sleep too late. headache. arghhh. i nd FOOOOD!. ungry. heng after bio is lunch. wheeeeeeeeeee. anyway, thats for all la. partner killing me already. do research first. taaaaaaa.
- DEAD
gosh. last time went sentosa at 12 mid nite plus. den ah ya. insane la. ate so much. today ate at 9+ 10 oso. gain weight lyk nuts.. i now back in taf i bet. nvm. i got a few weeks till nxt weigh in. AHHHH!!! CHIONG AH! LOSE LOSE LOSE!
stupid society. i keep thinking of it. there are owas complains that young people nowadays are weak coz not exposed to hardships blahblahblah. we live in a lap of luxury. they must experience those hardship to be strong. den on the other hand, there are the same ppl that say WAH U SEE. DUN STUDY NXT TIME WILL HAF HARD LIFE. STUDY STUDY HOR. U DUNWAN EXPERIENCE HARDSHIP U BETTA STUDY. so come to think of it, people want the best of both worlds. which is actually quite perfectionistic or smth. its lyk, i wan cheese fries without fats. why are we working so hard towards perfection when we noe we will nvr attain it? just to show tt we've given our all and therefore become heroes in our own league? i was forced to do spring cleaning today. went to e stupid roof and cleared the leaf litter accumulated there for a year. it sux ok. its dirty blahhs.. i soo hate it. its hardship to me. den all those words keep spinning in my mind MUST EXPERIENCE HARD SHIP BLAH BLAH BLAH. DEN CAN GROW. den on the other hand, nxt time u study harder lor hire maids do this kinda thing. so ironic how people can force u to do those things tts hard on u and den tell u to do study so that u dun hafta do it nxt time and u can hire others. so do they want us to experience hardship or not? gosh. they are pushing and pulling at e same time. study hard and experience hardship!
ok as u can see, i am lyk totally insane. i hate hardship la. but lack of it does make ppl soft.. basically perfectionist i am one too i guess. that there can be a perfect person that has it all. e brains brawns spirit soul mind and personality. but it does take e zest out of life... come to think of it, if i were perfect, i wouldnt be insane. and if i am not insane and looney, i guess i alr lost 3/4 of all e fun i had. so it boils down to just one crapshit question. do we want perfection? crap. wad am i toking abt in this entry?! argh. anyway, i gained weight. fuck. now i am 68. CRIES.
- DEAD
Saturday, January 21
people. i PROMISE i will revamp my blog. lol. just gimme lyk 5 days of totally no-schno-hmwk environment i wud do it up. sorry.. i personally it will not lose its sadistic and stupid flavour. dun worry!! it'll be as dumb as forever. just keep checking back. lol.
anyway, today ah. sch ended early whee. 12.05. love it. anyway the day before suxx lyk shit. my thigh hurt so much now.. blah. lessons all e way till 4.15. den pe till 5.05. den badminton till 7.00. ah ya. practically killed my muscle cells. argh. now cant climb stairs properly. its been lyk years ok. literally. i stopped sporting out lyk last dec. not last dec. i mean the dec in 2004. haha. oh well. lyl this la.. sigh. a msg just keep ringing thru my mind.
i will nvr do thatthere is lyk smth special abt it that it can take up an entire paragraph all on its own... a statement.? a promise.? a reassurance.? it just does smth to e heart. =)
- DEAD
Tuesday, January 17
sch life. wad can i say? refer back to last few years e blog entries. LOL. its e same thing la. sigh. diff tcher. my form tcher so cute. smile lyk hamster. keep smiling oso. gosh. stupid math tcher. got some kinda honkey accent. blah blah. dun lyk her tt much. got so many tutorials to do. plus one dumb presentation on a guy hu wrote this econs book Wealth of Nations. BLAHHHHHH!~
miss chillin... vis jer shel rui came over on hari raya haji. lol. did wad we do best. sit and chill. HAHA. literally. had dinner cooked by my DEAREST SISTER
since ur gonna be reading this. =DDD haha. thankuee.
back to sch life.. wad can i say? PE SUX!
- DEAD
Wednesday, January 11
ok. rejected for badminton sch team. blahhs. now duno choose wad cca. drama sounds enticing. but i love badminton. i can join under recreational. sigh. so toots.
- DEAD
Saturday, January 7
blahhs. after effects of orientation: giddiness. exhaustion. high moments running thru brain over and over again. AND. loss of voice.
today, i assumed e role of a koala. slept. eat. slept. eat. blog. going to sleep. gawd.
- DEAD
Friday, January 6
I'VE LOST MY DARN BRAINS IN MJC!!
gawd. it was a damn rock concert ok.. e bonfire... electrifying.. i duno wad to say. too much to blog.. clap till hands as red as bricks on e floor.... scream till 2nd puberty.. jump till my legs tremble.. WHOOHOOOOOOO!
- DEAD