Monday, October 30
soon to hols. everything's slowed down. doesnt feel normal. lol.
lol. was reading this article abt supernatural stuff. wonder, how many ppl out dere actually have ESP or magic and stuff. are there really ghosts and vamps? ahh well.
- DEAD
Thursday, October 26
pissed. seriously a blog does not scream PLEASE READ ME. u can leave the content alone if you arent happy with it. I AM IRRESPONSIBLE YA I ADMIT. BUT U WERE UNREASONABLE. and you DEFINITELY have no idea what i am going through in school. you better get my message STRAIGHT AND PROPER and not misconstrue *check it up the dictionary* my message and produce MINDLESS MISCONCEPTIONS and treat it as my word. i dont think its wrong to blog what i want as long it does not cause social unrest. so what i blog abt family who do not fully understand me. the worst thing is that even AFTER reading, u still do not get it. you still fucking do not see e picture.
i need my own space. i need ppl to understand me. gently REMIND me to go slp. gently GIVE me words of advice. u do NOT use the fact that i bitched abt u ON THE BLOG and say that i am irresponsible. looks like the time taken to read my blog was wasted. BECOZ U STILL FUCKING DO NOT UNDERSTAND ME. YES U. so what i blog abt MY LIFE. tts to tell u what is going on and what is wrong. apparently u find it childish. ever heard of ALTERNATIVE FORM OF COMMUNICATION. call this the rebellious phase if u want, i dun really care. i cant believe after my big LET-OUT u still do not get what i am going through. and DARE to use it as a sign of irresponsibility. so what if i am irresponsible in some ways. i aint no angel. you arent too great urself. for one, i save electricity. i dun keep the TV on when slping, i dun blast the radio and go out of the audible range. i don keep all the lights in my room on even though i am not in there. i don bring a cup of water and leave it half drank on the table and wait for SOMEONE to clear it. i don junk all my unwanted letters which i open while in my sibling's room. i don bring my keys and wallet out AND still put it with someone else's bag or pocket so that i dun hafta carry them. if i am irresponsible then i really dont think you are fit to comment on me. AND i dont UNREASONABLY call anyone to GO FETCH ME A CUP OF WATER. just becoz i did help u a few times doesnt mean u can use me all the time. dun think u can manipulate me with ur finger. or manipulate me any way at all. go wash ur own dirty laundry if you are that independent and responsible and what-not.
and YES you are a scheming bi***. dont think i dont know, all the opportune times u choose to make ur statements. in the car when u have elder backing. pathetic. u make me sick with ur choice of words too.
- DEAD
Saturday, October 21
whats a tagboard for if you dont say what you want? some people put up a tagboard and actually censor comments. or worse, they single out comments and start picking on them. hello? tagboards are SUPPOSED to let ppl leave notes even when passing by. their opinions and stuff. dont understand this at all..
- DEAD
Saturday, October 14
ok. long time no blog. update some stuff. past wk slept like v little to prepare for OP and open hse. open hse was a success! had to step on some ppl's toes on the day itself for cleaning up coz some ppl dunwan help. but. heck. thanks canoeing guys!!
i was wondering if we really existed. fengling said we could be in someone's dreams. where our existence doesnt matter because we are controlled by them. i must admit i have those kinda dreams where i like wake up late for exam, bomb some building, or suddenly run run run den FLY! woah. and it felt so real. but it was a dream. are we in those dreams? someone's dreams? or are we really existing and creating our own future? or we really exist and our existence matters? sigh. would be saddening to know if we really dun exist.
- DEAD